Hey there.. how are you Mr.Blogger. It's nearly 7 months I've worked. What I can say is I got so much tired. I used hundred percents of my energy though. Oh my stress ! I am twenty two years old. I've never imagine my life could be this tough. Ya Allah.. give me a strength to live on my own. For my sake. For my family. My heart cried but lied with the sentence "I can do it!" No! I can't. I got jealousy with my friends who was able to find a man she loves. Who gave a birth early. Who work with sit down on the chair and their fingers only running onto the keyboard or she's the one that become full housewife. Ya Allah.. you did the best for us. I am sorry. I just want to let go what I felt. I work only eight hours each day but I sacrified all my workplace needs. All my energy, I went home like a sick person. Totally zero. All I was think.. sleep! I dont have a friend anymore to laugh with. I lost my old friends and I cannot get a new one. How sad is it? I feel like I lost something. I want to be the traveler like my guests. Wake up in the morning, getting fresh air and looking at breathtaking places. Hold the lover hands and never letting go. Go along the way. Take a selfie. Share the funniest story. Laugh together. No stress approaches. When it will gonna happen. I hope soon. I just want to be happy. If not with the man who loves me, I just want a good friend. I want to travel around the world. I want to see the whole world you created for us. Some peoples are so lucky, but there is some peoples struggle for their life. That's me. I cried. I have a big dream. When I can achieve it? Later. Raudzah, please trust yourself. No pain no gain. You can do it. You can do it!!! I always make myself believe in me. Because I know that only myself can lend a hand for me. Now, the world tells us not to believe in peoples around us. It is because all those people wanting to move success without hesitate to throw away their friendship. I hope one day I'll get the freedom.
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